Good morning new year !!
I can't believe it's half way through February already !
I'm currently not eating chocolate. WAAAAAAA it SUCKS. I love chocolate. But i must detox, the dependency was getting a tad crazy. So I'm going 6 weeks without chocolate.
It's currently the beginning of week 2... But I am positive I can achieve this goal !
This is not a weight thing, it's an emotional health thing.
I have made chocolate the default setting for when I feel uncomfortable, anxious, sad, overtired, stressed, or out of control. Going cold turkey is forcing me to deal with those emotions in a healthier way.
By letting myself feel them. By resting and letting God come.
I have realized lately that I am pretty skilled at keeping my senses constantly stimulated. You will not often find me not doing something that requires full attention of my eyes and ears, and as i have discussed, my taste buds. And come to think of it, my sense of touch, as i have this frustrating, disgusting habit of chewing at my fingers lol.
How can I hear God talking to me if I'm always listening to something else ? How can I say I'm available to Him when I'm always occupied with something else ?
It's hard doing nothing and waiting on God when I'm feeling uncomfortable. So hard. It feels a bit like losing control. And I guess it is.. but as long as God is the one gaining the control, I will continue to let go of the sides of the box I have put myself in.
Here's to a year of living outside the box.
Here's to a healthy soul.